I am back after forever.
I had the strangest dream a few days ago and it has been imbedded in my brain forever.
this man was staring at me in a white room,a nd all of a sudden he turned into a clown and laughed at me maniacally. like a genuine creepy laugh.
But I hugged him, and I woke up.
Wow.
I am deeply amazed by how much this group I started has transformed into this great place.
Deep moment live everywhere, the smallest details may be the ones that dig really far.
I think that this group will progress, and that I love everything you guys post!
-nina. :)
I am so saddened right now. I spent the whole night crying yesterday.
Yesterday started out pretty great. My and my father were stepping out of the house to go to his work, for himt o pick up a few things, and then go to my favorite bookstore.
So as we headed towards his car, a cat was following him.
"Nina, look at this beauty" I stepped towards the cat and petted it. I looked at his name tag, and his name was Dexter. It showed hi address and phone number.
"What if he's lost?" I asked my father.
"Nah, he's probably just walking around. He's most likley trained, and knows his house."
As we got in my father's car, I was still pondering my thought. What if he is lost? I mean, I haven't seen him before around here, and he seemed to just go to our place.
It was cold, and I noticed he hid under the bushes by our house.
After our trip, we came back, and Dexter was not there. So, at that moment, I thought my father was right.
He was wrong.
At around midnight, my father and mother heard scratching at our door. My father opened the door and there was the cat, trying ot get in. My mother is, of course, afraid of cats, so she backed away. My father stepped outside and called me.
As I came out, I started feeling sad. I knew this cat was lost, and I wanted to get him back to his home. Dexter had to go home.
I checked his address and phone number once again, and wrote it down. My mother called the phone number and she said it was disconnected.
That was when I grew worried.
Mother told me they may have left him on the streets, but I decided to make my father and I go to the address and try to find Dexter his home.
As I carried Dexter to the car, I looked in his olive green eyes, and I saw something I've never seen in an animal before. I saw fear, happiness, and warmth.
Driving to the house, while I sang to Dexter, we knocked on the door of his house.After awhile, we were about to go back home, but finally the door opened.
"I think this cat belongs to you m'am" My father said.
"Oh no, this is our tenant's cat" The woman who opened the door answered.
"Is her or she here by any chance?"
"No, he's a bit weird, I haven't seen him latley" She responded.
My heart stopped for a second.
My father told her we were going to leave Dexter in front of the door, and he could wait for his owner. It looked like it was going to rain, and it was cold! How could we leave this beautiful creature here!
The landlady could not bring the cat here, because she had dogs, and we couldn't because we had dogs, and my mother had a fear.
I begged my father to let Dexter stay with us, but he said we couldn't.
We left him at the door, and he walked around the house, and to the next house and back, while we drove away. I cried all the way back home, and the rest of the night. It started raining at home, and that made me cry harder.
I could not stop thinking about Dexter, and his soft ears, and deep eyes. I kept thinking he wasn't going to be at his nice warm bed.
I still don't know whats happening, and I am so afraid for him. I want him to be safe, and I want him to be with someone who loves him like I do.
I still am thinking about him, and I wanna walk around and look for him just incase. My parents don't understand, and no one else does. I have a connection with certain animals, because they understand me. And I don't want to lose one of them.
Any suggestion on how to get over this, or how to find Dexter and make sure he's safe?
I wonder how lucky am I to actually get something from my family. I have food, home, clothes, and most of all, people that I love. But I am just wondering out of interest, is that really enough? Simple things I forget to do, have to be perfected or else I am scorned for quite a while. It irks me how much of a deal is put into something so simple as putting the dishes away, or dusting the house. If I forget to do it right at the spot, I should not be yelled at or get a dramatic sigh of some sort. Though this is quite silly, and I feel as if I am putting alot of emotion into the fairly ridiculous entry, I cannot stand another whine. I do not want to put emotion into anything for the matter. I promised myself my emotion would not be shown to anyone. Unless, of course, I write or draw on Vox. This is the only thing I will ever put my emotions on. Well, this has been my entry for now, Au Revoir!
I cannot believe what just happened.
I just came home from schoolk two hours earlier because I felt sick.
I think it was because of my friend and a few other people who, for some reason, targeted me wihtout knowing.
There was alot of smoke in the air, and no I do not smoke, but people I know do. I felt very woozy. Maybe because I have Asthma? I have no clue.
Now, I am home, and I have forgotten to get my Socials sheet and my Science book, which were for homework. I shall have to start ALL OVER again on my Socials, and I shall have to do my Science work again.
This is so much fun.
Wow, alot has changed since I last posted.
For example I just entered highschool now. I was a bit freaked about it, but it's pretty good. A bit hectic, but pretty good. I cannot wait for weekends though now. I am always waiting for them to begin.
I have been hearing so many vulgar remarks nowadays with my new friends, old friends, and everyone basically. It's really a wonder how far you an get with bad words, and bad examples. I know I do swear once in awhile, but every sentence and almost every word, thats just low and uneducated.
Also, I got a haircut, my hair is REALLY short now, I have a picture on my profile page, and icon, to prove it!
Yeah I know, I am too lazy to put it up here.
I have a real friend right now, but one I almost never see nowadays. I been having weird things happeneing related to him in my week. It's weird.
I'm still waiting for my friend to finish her blog, so I can communicate with her.
I also talked to someone who understands me. Well, two people (thanks Larry), but also someone my age, that I know. It was very weird, but comforting. I can't talk about it much, because I don't know if the other peroson would want me to. But I want to thank you. To both.
My mind, is just inching closer to exploding, and leaving me on the floor, to die.
Never have I felt this defeated. I have never felt so helpless, and like no one takes me seriously.
Oh wait, yes I do, every freaking day.
